continuation...

oh yeah!! she also asked me how would i feel if she would want to go out on a date with another guy... i said i dont mind.. after all its her life... she can do what she wants....

she had gone to delhi these holidays... she stayed with her "closest" friend... an army officer..

well i was ok till then.. but then one day she told me that she felt a hard on when she hugged the guy.. now thats not normal...

well if she was ok with it... why not me...

well im not saying that she is sleeping with him, or she likes him " a lot ", but what im saying is.. she has started to spread her wings.. has become more aware of the world around here....

she had also once said that she wanted to enjoy her bachelor life.. she gave the explanation that i had enjoyed my bachelor life.. now its her turn... i didn't understand what she meant by this.. but it surely did give me the creeps...

would i be able to love her as much if i find out that she has had an affair with another guy, during our relationship... i dont know.. and i dont want to know.. i will climb that ladder once it comes in front of me...

27 nov 2010 0128h

today mona told me she wanted some time off... from each other...

she told me before that she had met someone today... a indigo airline pilot...

apparently.. her room mate upasanna, also liked the guy and wanted to go out with him on a date... but that guy asked mona out for a date... instead of telling the guy that she already had a boyfriend... she told him that she was too busy..

then there was something about being too young... now as far as i can remember.. that guy told upasanna that she was too young... and needed to concentrate more on her job and future.... mona is a year younger to upasanna... now why didnt that guy tell this to mona...???

mona also seemed very interested in this guy as she was just talking about him throughout the conversation. not once did she ask me as to why i did not cll her in the evening...

well i guess she is right... she does deserve some one better than me...

she need a guy who is rich.. they arent very well off financially....

she told me she needed the time off to see how our relationship takes its turn... long distance relationship...

though she did say that she would be glad if i got posted to someplace where she could meet me by just catching a single flight... a place like delhi or jodhpur... but what if i dont go to these places....

what if i get posted to the NE... in AR or RR... what then....

well its all upto time now... i know im not going to get married to here in the near future.... so then what am i doing... stalling time....

now i have serious doubts about our relationship... will i too end up like ankur dutta...???

or like shailu and panchi.... these too were together 5 and a half years... 5 and a half years man... we both have been together since dec 2007... thats only three years.... wow.... i dont know what to think so im not going to think at all.. like what i always do... just lets see where this goes... if i was not destined to spend the rest of my life with mona... well then maybe im not...

prajakta, meenal and now mona...

wow... jus like what amma had told me...

im unlucky in love....

and i do remember once my friend told me... a friend who could read palms... or was well versed with palmistry... he said i would have three affairs.. and big affairs mind you... and my third affair would be the longest...

prajakta... six term NDA - six months and second term IMA - six months... one year

meenal - YO (oct 2005) - glacier last call (dec 2006) 14 months

mona - nov 07 till date.. its been 3 years 1 month... till where will it last.. where will i go from here...

well i feel stupid to write al this but then when i read these memoirs down the road.. i would sit back and smile...

First one

I dont even remember when did i create my blog... but then now that i have come back online after god knows how many years.. I shall start doing this every day atleast....

i always loved writing.. or typing.. whatever u may think...

here dere is no one who is going to spell check me (thank u ma)... or post ne comments which i dont want to see... coz i aint gonna tell it to ne one..

i am jus goign to speak my mind out.. best wud be after getting high... i neway get these revelations after getting high which no one except i can under stand...

i had jotted down a few revelations in my computers note pad.. but i think with the WWW being so vast.. i can start doing it here.. maybe i can choose the privacy settings on this site and make all my blogs private...

that way once i can jot down all the nonsense.. i can jus save it n leave it the this vast universe of the WWW.... haa haa.. this is gonna be fun

well today is the 18th of Sep 2010....

my dog BOMBS got badly injured as she was trying to jump iver the steel box barricade i have set up.. she got cut near her ribs real bad... got 5 stitches.. i had stitches once.. for my nose which i had broken during NDA days... i still remem the doc asking me if i had rushing into a wall...

mom used to say i had my grand fathers nose.. which blve me was really nice.. but then i have had my good days with my newly constructed nose...

once in IMA i got into boxing.. the first bout i had was against a junior who knew i had broken my nose pretty bad.. so his first punch was bang on my nose... after the punch he moved away to see my reaction.. maybe he was hoping i wud forfeit.. or wud be disqualified to box... but then i brish my nose.. pressed it against my gloves and spoke through my chimps... "buddy.. the nose aint there ne more!!"

you should have seen his face.. then i gave him what he deserved.. a KO in the first round itself .. used to love the time on the boxing championships...

well neway i aint high as yet as Udit bhaskar is sleeping in my room...Udit .. buddy... if i see this blog after years and am still in touch with you... your gona wanna see this... u walked into my room after your Route march.. i still dont get it. how come my name didnt figure in the RM list.. neway...

spoke to mona.. told her abt Bombs... she was pretty upset n wanted to come over... well i guess its ok coz tomm is sunday n i will be able to drop her.

now i am feeling very sleepy.. had picked up Mrs Simbul Tabrez today moring at 0530 from the rly stn... got up at 0445.. i did sleep in the class but am still kinda drowsy. so wen bhaskar leave i shall to get some shut eye...

challo dats all for now... will jot down more info later on...

cheers buddy...

gopz...